24 weeks

Well, what a week this has been!!

I posted on Monday when I was 23+4 weeks pregnant with the worrying news that my cervix was closed but down to 2.7cm, on the low end of normal. Given my history, my consultant wanted to be extra careful (which I was very grateful for) so she said that I needed to rest and come back today for a rescan. In the meantime, I had to have two steroid injections which would help baby’s lungs to develop faster, so he’d have the best chance if he decided to make an early appearance. 

I had the injections (easily the most painful shots I’ve ever had, and I’ve had 8 shots for rabies before!!) and then I just had to wait. Being on bed rest is the scariest thing, as you feel every single twinge and change and have nothing else to do but lay and worry, but if it gave baby the best chance then that was fine with me. 

I went to the scan today and didn’t know what to expect really. If it was 2cm or less then I would have had a cervical stitch put in to help baby stay in for longer. The scan started and I didn’t really know what the heck I was looking at, but it turns out that my cervix is still closed and has lengthened to 4.4cm! Wow!!! This is the best outcome that we could have hoped for, and it took a while for it to sink in, I was so terrified.

We saw the specialist afterwards and she said that I still need to keep taking it easy, but I can move around the house a little bit more. Basically we need to get to 27 weeks, so my goal is just to do as little as possible until then. I’m not working, so it’s not difficult for me to do very little each day, which is great. My poor husband has been brilliant and fed and watered me all week, I’m so grateful for him and I know it’s been a worrying time for him too.

So I’m now back in bed, back on Netflix again! I figure that I might as well rest up as much as I can to give the baby the best chance. Everything feels very surreal still, but I just have to keep plodding along and see how things go. I’m 24+1 weeks today, so every day is a blessing and a chance for baby to get stronger. 

Thank you so much to everyone for your lovely and encouraging comments this week, they’ve really helped me through. Let’s just hope for a very uneventful few weeks now, fingers crossed.


23 weeks 

Hi all, as you could probably tell, i’d gone quiet again since my last post at 20 weeks, just hoping that everything would continue to go well. 

I’d gone to hospital at around 21 weeks with some pressure and discharge and had had my cervix checked by a doctor (it was closed) and then the next day had an internal scan to check how my cervix was doing. It measured at 3.4cm and was completely closed. For anyone who doesn’t know much about the cervix in pregnancy (I certainly didn’t!) it’s basically the muscle which keeps baby inside until you go into labour, so until then it needs to stay nice and long and closed. It should be between 3-5cm at this point in pregnancy. I’d had it checked at 17 weeks and it was even longer at 4.5cm.

This was a relief, so I carried on as usual, but took things a bit steady. The doctor said I should come back in 2 weeks to see how it was doing, so you off I went this morning. The sonographer did a tummy scan first and baby is doing brilliantly, measuring above average and all looking good. This was lovely to see as always. She then said she’d do the cervix check. I was feeling ok about this, as id had no more pressure really, but my heart dropped when I saw it was closed but only measuring 2.7cm. Not good.

I had to go to see the specialist straight after to see what the plan would be. As you can imagine, I was pretty upset by this point. I was trying to stay calm, but the thought that our baby might not make it after all that we’ve been through was just unthinkable. 

The specialist was brilliant and said that right now I’m 23+4 weeks, so only 3 days away from viability. Realistically, the chances aren’t great if you give birth at 24 weeks, but there is a chance. So she said I need to try and make it to that point first. She said I need to have two steroid injections – one today and one tomorrow – these will help baby’s lungs to develop faster so that if he does come early then he’ll have a better chance of being able to breathe on his own. She then said that I need to go home and take it easy completely, then come back in for another scan on Friday to see how things look. If my cervix has shortened to 2cm or less, then I’ll have to have a cervical stitch put in straightaway. This is a procedure which basically tries to hold your cervix tight and closed for as long as possible, to give baby as much cooking time as possible. Again I don’t know a great deal about this, but I know it’s definitely an option if things are heading that way.

So I had my first steroid injection, which hurt like you wouldn’t believe, and have been in bed all day. My husband has taken the week to work from home and has been getting all of my food and drinks, I’m only getting up to use the bathroom. 

Honestly, I just don’t know how to feel right now. I allowed myself a quick google on this and happily I found much more good stories than bad – which never happens!! It seems that once this issue has been spotted by doctors they can keep a good eye on you and do their best to keep baby cooking for as long as possible. My doctor said that if I can make it to 27 weeks then there is a good chance that baby would be OK (with help once they’re born obviously). I have faith in my doctor as she’s been so proactive given my history and I definitely feel like I’m being monitored as closely as I can be. Luckily we only live 10mins from the hospital too, which is a relief.

I have to keep taking it easy, but go to hospital if I have any pressure/pain, so I’m just hoping that this doesn’t happen. My cervix was closed at that point, which was good, but because it’s a muscle it can change at any point, so you never really know what’s going on I guess.

I’ll let you know how Friday goes, but please send good thoughts our way. I honestly can’t believe the journey that we’ve been on so far and I’m just hoping that our little fighter baby can stay cooking for much, much longer. 


20 weeks 

Sorry for the radio silence for the past month or so, if I’m totally honest I’m always scared to post updates on here. It might sound ridiculous, but I always worry that I’ll post and then something will happen. I guess RPL does that to you, but I’m doing my very best to stay happy and positive 🙂
I had my 20 week NHS anomaly scan last week and am happy to report that all went well. I was petrified going into the scan, as usual, so was very relieved that all was ok. We chose not to find out the gender too, which makes it much more fun when speaking to people about it I’ve found.

Overall I’m doing pretty well. I won’t complain for one second about any of the physical bits of being pregnant, as I’m still amazed and overjoyed every day that this is happening. I do find it hard not to worry about anything that I feel/hear/experience which is unusual, but I just keep trying to tell myself to relax and enjoy everything. Much easier said than done! I’ve got the Headspace app, so think I’ll start to use that to help chill me out a bit. 

I’ll post a bit more soon, when all the Christmas and new year madness has calmed down, just didn’t want anyone to think I’d fallen pregnant and then disappeared off the face of the blogging world. 

Happy new year to everyone. I know too well how difficult this time of year can be, I hope that everyone found some peace, fun and rest over the last couple of weeks. Here’s hoping for a wonderful 2016 for all of us, lots of love